21 next month

Lamanya tak menulis.

My latest post was dated around February 2015 and today its the 4th September 2016. A lot has changed since then. Opah dah takda, I'm already in my second clinical posting of third year, my close friend back in AUCMS is engaged and getting married next month, lagi apa lagi? blank kejap. lol

Tapi yang pasti, Im still the same as I ever was.

nak cakap apa lagi ni....mm tu je lah. bye

Starstruck

Today has been nothing but hectic. Melampau kau, bab exaggerate #1!!! Tak da la hectic, cuma busy sikit hehehe.

Woke up in the morning, as usual, played with my phone because what better way to start my day off than to expose myself with radiation? And then I headed downstairs for breakfast,yay! Tengok whatsapp, wancik kata opah dah boleh makan, so my sister and I decided to prepare soup and porridge for my darling grandmother. Otw to the hospital was okay I guess? haha (kena hon dengan makcik ni sbb masuk lane dia dekat tol, ala makcik I dah bagi signal okay? lek lah takda touch n go time tu, jadi bayangkan lah dengan nak cari lane tunai sambil driving?? huhu sorry cik)

Disebabkan HUKM memang pagi2 selalu jem, I had to wait in the car while Fira sent the food to opah. Funny how I had to make multiple turns around the roundabout sbb tak nak cari parking+bayar tiket punya pasal huahuahuaaaa. Dalam perjalanan dari hospital, tiba tiba teringin tutti frutti pulak dahhh. Tanpa ragu, terus ke tutti frutti shah alam lepas tu :P

Tengah syok makan froyo, wancik call minta tolong ambil imran from kindergarten. Kita pun apa lagi, no problem hehehe. Imran finished school at 1230 but I arrived there approx. 10 minutes-ish late! Keluar2, menangis imran!! oh noo!! sorry baby :( bawak ke kedai terus kering air mata hehehe

Sampai rumah, had lunch pastu nap time konon nak sekejap......but....bercycle-cycle juga lah sleep cycle tadi. lol never trust yourself to nap, like ever. Bangun2 dah pukul 5 lebih!! Ayah balik, siap2 and then off to the hospital we go :)

Opah nampak sangat letih when we came in. Kesian tengok opah in that condition :( Ayah tried checking opah's spO2 lvl on his phone, 70%. Dah start risau, jadi maksu panggil nurse. Nurse datang checked and it turned out spO2 was about 93 and Pulse rate 94. Alhamdulillah, maknanya maybe the position of the phone tak berapa nak betul sangat atau memang benda tu salah tak tau lah haha. Ntah mcm mana, nurse kata nanti dia panggil doctor untuk check lungs. okay.

Doctor pun masuk. Tengok dia terus terkejut because it was Dr Fatin Liyana! The Fatin Liyana, man! The famous blogger yang memang since after spm Ive been a fan of!! Tachycardia aku kat situ weh hahaha terkesima, terpegun, I was starstruck! Tp luar tetap maintain cool okay hehehe. Dengan cara dia treat opah, memang bagus. Walaupun it was a simple examination, her sincerity and passion were obvious. Even ayah and maksu pun puji. Memang role model lah <3

After spending time with opah, we went straight back home.

xx

Pendam

We were there when you needed help,

But you turned away when your problems are solved,

Its no surprise you are how you are,

For you have always been the man who blames,

Everyone from your sisters to your brothers,

Its no surprise you are how you are.

You tell stories like you were there when it happened,

Truth is you were only there for a second,

A bit hypocritical I must say,

At how much you preach but acted this way.

Theres no denying how we've been looked down upon,

By others who think they know better,

think better,

live better.

I know what we have now isn't grand,

But as long we don't mask behind that façade,

Its alright, we'll be fine.

MBBS

Its been awhile since I last blogged and I feel that it's necessary for me to write at least one post before first year ends! Speaking of which, I have only a month left until my professional exam! Which means, I have only a month left until first year ends!! Thats right, Im almost done, habis, like hasta la vista first year of med school! WHAT?? Where did all the time go?

Am I ready? Absolutely NOT! 

I am really hoping that I could make full use of this three week study break to actually study. GAHHH I dont know if I have enough time to finish the whole syllabus >.< 

Current mood: Genuinely SCARED!

Fresh start?

So yeah, my previous post was kinda....emotional, I should say. Being on that time of the month could be one contributing factor or maybe im just looking for reasons to burst. I dont know..

But anyhow, I am determined to be better. I'll try my best, to gain more confidence in myself, and regain that semangat belajar. Yeap. InsyaAllah. 

This is totally out of the subject but I have been very obsessed with maxi cotton shawls lately. Its purf to the purf, ok. It's easily shaped, super comfy, available in a variety of colours and patterns and the best part, it doesnt even need ironing! Talk about perfection on a piece of fabric. I just ♡ it!!! Below,  are pictures of me clad in maxi cotton shawls! Hehe

Semak.

Im typing this because I want everything off my chest. I dont care if the sequence of the sentences dont connect well to one another. I want someone to talk to but I dont have the guts to pour things out to anyone easily since forever. If I was home I would've my sister to share my problems with. It has only been a day since my family went back and I already miss them.

Im feeling like such wreck at the moment. I hate the hostel here. I hate my room. Im sick of waiting for the studying table thats never here. I hate the fact that I cant even get comfy in my own room. Im sick of being away from family, from home. Im worried sick of my sem 1 results because I know I did very bad in math and screwed calculation parts in chemistry.

Im scared. Im weak. Im sad. I want things to be like how it was before I entered college.

Officially a college student

Hi blog!

Im currently doing Foundation in Medical Studies at AUCMS, Kepala Batas and I must say, it's been wonderful so far.

Like most colleges/universities, freshies are "welcomed (??)" with orientation. There are pros and cons to this tho. The good thing about it is that it only lasted for 3 days. Im saying this because most institutes call for a week of orientation. Apart from that, I got to make new friends here which was cool but the ice breaking session was cliché. I rather make friends on my own than doing that, frankly speaking. We were divided into groups and had to pick a leader and shiz. The rest is history, i guess. The closing ceremony was nice tho. My team was the first to perform and it was embarassing. But I had a great time.

Im very grateful for my housemates. They're all awesome people. My roommate is Izzati whose a sweetheart and she's taking her diploma. and then there's As, whose driven and funny. Mimi, one of the kindest person i've met. Hanim, a sweet girl from Kuantan and then we have Hafizah, the one who never fails to make us laugh. I love them all dearly :)

We were given an apartment/flat to stay in which im really thankful of. Each house consists of 3 bedrooms, 2 toilets (alhamdulillah), a kitchen, two balconies and accommodates 6 students. Not only that, there are also shuttle services provided for the students here. So basically, we have to take the bus to go to class errday. To get things clear, the vicinity of aucms is not like most universities. The hostels, classes, auditorium, etc are not located in the same compound. They're pretty much scattered in the town of Kepala Batas. That kinda suck but oh well.

First class was supposedly on the first monday after orientation but there wasnt. We were given the timetable for the semester and divided into group for tutorial classes instead. Oh and the lecturers were introduced after lunch. Up till friday, there werent any classes which was a bummer. Bosan gila kut. However, there will be class this monday. Or at least that's what some say.

I guess thats all for now!
bye
xx

p/s: Najwa and lind, if youre reading this, please text me your number! I lost all contacts! D: